Kabhi apna Nahi Bana Sakati

Hi friends mera naam Gudiya hai, mere pyar ne mera pyar se yahi naam rakha hai, wo mujhe pyar se gudiya hi bolte hai, pyar ka matlab kya hota hai, iski fellings kya hoti hai, mai kuch bhi nhi janti thi, in sab bato se anjan thi, kbhi in sab bato me believe nhi karti thi, hamesa apne dosto ki help karti thi or jab meri friends mujhese puchti to mai has ke bolti mere sath aisa kbhi nhi hoga.

Boy friends mere bahut sare the, par pyar, wo feelings kisi ke sath nhi. fir ek din achnak se mai ek company me interveiw ke liye gayi, waha mera selection bhi ho gaya or mai waha aaj 2 salo se work kar rahi hu or best staff me bhi aati hu, waha ke branch head the mr. aniket,

unse meri batein hone lagi, ghar aana jana hone laga. wo bhi mere ghar aane jane lage, mai unhe like karne lagi, wo aksar bahar hi rahte the, unke jane ka baad mai unka wait karti, mujhe office me maan nhi lagta, hamesa aankhe unhe hi dhundhti rahti thi, unke bina maan nhi lagta tha, wo paas rahe to mujhe bahut achha lagta tha. 05-12-2010 ko pahli bar mere karib aaye the, mai market se unke ghar pe gaye thi, us din me bahut apset thi,

unohne pyar se mera hath pakda or bole, kya problems hai, mujhse share karo, mai solve karunga or share karne se problems kam ho jaya karti hai, wo jante the, mai kbhi kisi se apni problems share nhi karti thi, par us din unki bato me ajib sa apnapan laga, mai rone lagi, unhone mere aansu poche or bole mai tumhare aankho mai aansu kabhi nhi dekha sakta hu, tum hamesa hasti raho, haste huwe hi bhaut achhi lagti ho.

uske baad me unke hi bare me sochti thi, par unko batane se hamesa darti thi, wo kya sochenge mere bare. 14-12-2010 ko wo mujhe market me bulaye or mujhe ek sundar sa payal gift kiya, unhe pata tha mujhe payal bahut pasand hai, mai bahut khus huwi, maine soch liya aaj chahe jo bhi ho jaye, mai bol hi dungi, tabhi mujhe pata chala ki wo shadi sudha hai, unke do bachhe hai, mai socked ho gayi.

ghar aa gayi or raat bhar roti rahi, so nahi payi, next day office gayi wo nhi aaye the, mai baichain ho gayi, pata chala unki tabiyat kharab hai, call ki to wo mujhe bulaye, mai unse milne unke ghar gayi, unhone mujhe perpose kiya, bole ye sahi hai ya galat mujhe nhi pta, par mai tumse bahut pyar karne laga hu, tumahre bina jeene ke bare mai soch bhi nhi sakta hu. maine kha ye galat hai, aap kisi or ke hai, wo bole ha mai kisi or ka hu.

me tumhe apna kabhi nahi bana sakta hu, par jab tak tumahri shadi nhi ho jati, tumahre sath jeena chahta hu, tumhe kusiya dena chahtu, mai waha se roti huwi ghar chali aayi or 2 din tak office nhi gayi, 2 din baad unka bas ye message aaya, mai 2 din se pani bhi nhi piya hu or jab tak tumko dekhunga nhi tab tak nhi piyunga, mai kya karti mujhe kuch samjh mai nhi aa raha tha, mai bhi unke bina nhi rah sakti thi, mai bhi unse bhut pyar karne lagi thi.

fir hum logo ka rista suru ho gaya, ek wife jitna pyar nhi kar sakti, care nhi kar sakti, aaj mai un sab se jayada unhe pyar deti hu, unka care karti hu, aaj hum logo ka rista ek saal se hai, mai unse bhut pyar karti, mai unki wife se bhi mili hu, unko apni bari bahan mana hai,

kuch logo ne mere bare me unse sikayat bhi ki, mai unhe boli koe bhi problem ho saf saf mujhe bol dena mai khusi khusi, is duniya se chali jaungi, par kabhi aapki life barbad hone nhi dungi, aaj unki sali sab mujhe gali bhi de deti hai, mai aaj sab ki bate has ke sun leti hu, mujhe pata hai.

wo mujhse bhut pyar karte hai, par aaj ki date me wo bahut busy ho gaye hai apne kaam me, aaj mai unka wait kar rahi hu. wo mere kabhi nhi ho sakte hai, me life me kabhi bhi khus nhi rah sakti hu, fir bhi unse bahut pyar karti hu. please friends help me mai kya karu..

Submitted By - Gudiya